WAW staying, I'm leaving to give her space..(2)

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Starting new thread, only took 2 weeks for the original one to fill up

Moved alot of things into my new (luxury prison cell) today while W was sleeping. S6 D7 had fun with me in my new place, loved daddy's new furniture

W was still pretty upbeat when she woke up. I tried very hard to have PMA and act ASIF around W. She noticed, said to me that I looked like I was doing pretty well today. (I was crying like a baby, when I was alone in kitchen cooking dinner, had to keep it to myself).

Noticable improvement in R over past couple days. Trying to keep PMA but worried that things will go down the drain when I move out. One noticable difference today was that in conversation, W asked me 'if you do come back what are we going to do with the furniture you bought?'. 'What are we going to keep?' Subtle things like that were HUGE to me, but I kept thinking to myself 'don't get your hopes up yet'. This is why I became emotional when I was cooking dinner, I was trying my best not to take any of those comments too seriously. WAY too early.

One thing that really has been confusing me that maybe someone may have an opinion or shed some light on. It's about the whole OM/A possibility that I uncovered but didn't tell my W about. Obviously it shook her up pretty significantly. Obviously W panicked (IMHO she burned the phone bill, ashes in bottom of trash can), and she insisted on cancelling the IUD appt stating she didn't want me to think she was cheating (although she could have rescheduled, I'd never know). W's attitude about D seemed to change pretty significantly after this episode. I don't understand what happened. I never told her I knew, why the positive change in W's attitude?

It sucks a little because I'm still worried whether A is ongoing and this attitude change is a 'front'. On the other hand, maybe A was an 'experimental' thing that didn't go anywhere. Maybe it was just an EA? I know it doesn't matter but I'm still curious. Do you think the answers to any of this will EVER be revealed? Honestly, I can understand it, I forgive it. I don't even care at this point (she could've screwed this guy's rocks off for all I care) as long as it isn't ongoing and W keeps opening up to me.

One other question(I probably know answer already). Should I and when to ask W about MC again. I would like to bring it up before sentencing on Tues because I have to schedule it with court. How important do the experts think it is to get W in there ASAP? If I don't get something setup by Tues, I'll have to wait 60 days to do it. Any thoughts?

Overall, if W's changes stick I think this week was a HUGE win!

p.s. - I know alot of talk about W and not myself. The win regarding myself is that I'm not scared to move anymore. I'll be ok, my GAL can begin then. Actually, the GAL started with the move. Like everyone has been telling me, my biggest problem is trying too hard to 'fix' R and talking too much! I plan on reading several books (including DB/DR) over the next 2-3 weeks.