So I don't know if last night was a good thing or a bad thing. H ended up spending the night here again. I'm not sure if he is here because he doesn't want to be at his place with his room mate. I know the room mate is driving him nuts. Or is he here cuz he wants to be. Anyways, he started talking to me last night about started in the greenhouses again with our business partner. I know that a lot of our problems have been with the partner and the way the business would run. It caused a lot of stress on our M and it is a big part of why he left. I was being supportive of his idea but I told him he should write it all down and sleep on it for 48hrs.

We went over to his parents after this conversation picked up his trailer for moving and dropped off D4 for the week-end. When we got back I thought he was taking S8 with him back to his place for the week-end.

He went and poured us drinks and said he was staying for awhile. A few hours later and a few drinks later we started talking again about R and our future. His doing and his words. Well I ended upcompletely breaking down. I told him that I wanted no part of the greenhouses. It was a major issue with us and I have been working so hard to get things back on track that i just can't go there again. I told him I would be completely involved in our other business (which is landscaping and I always have been) and help him there. And if he didn't want me involved in the landscaping then I was going to go back to school for something else. By this point in time I was crying. He came over to me and put his arms around me. Told me that we wouldn't do the greenhouses and he does want me part of the landscaping. Everything he said was with WE'S and US.

So I think it might have been a positive but maybe it was just his reaction to me crying. Not really sure. I hope I didn't screw up to much. He was quiet this morning again but gave me a hug when he left. He has to come back tomorrow to bring S8 back. I guess I will see how he is then.


Me:32
H: 34
T: 12 YEARS
M: ALMOST 5
S: 8
D: 4
S: 14 (OTHER R)
SEPERATED: 03/09/07 (but wanted to work on it)
NEW SEPERATION: 27/11/07 (doesn't know what he wants)
MOVED HOME 12/01/08
I'm acting as if this blue sky is never going to rain down on me....Sara Evans