I realized this morning, I don't want my current H back. He is right-- he has things he wants to do in his life that I cannot accept. Aside from the dating thing, he has been drinking a LOT and more often, doing drugs. That isn't what I want for my life or my life partner. It's not like I am some prudish, victorian teetotaller-but he is quite beyond my "comfort zone."
He thinks he is just "having fun" and it helps him relax and write better music. I see it as escapism. I don't know him when he gets really drunk or whatever--but he seems to think this is a good way to be. Seems very teenager'ish to me.
I still love him and wish things could be different, but he really seems hell-bent on going off in a different direction. Am I supposed to 'stand' in a situation like this?
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing
