Pregnant and abandoned #3

[blindsided1]

Today has been really depressing so far. I start to go down the list of "he doesn't love me", "if he cared about me he would call", "why did he leave me", "i miss him". It feels like every morning I wake up and he isn't there and I feel hopeless. I just feel hopeless. So, I've been crying this morning and sad at the fact that I feel like I don't mean anything to him. How could he just toss me and our family aside? How could he? I hate the idea of him and OW. I'm just really sad and I want to call him so bad, but I won't. Sometimes I feel like we are both waiting the other one out. Why couldn't he just love me enough? See, yesterday started out sad and it got better, then ended sad. Today started sad and who knows where it will go. I miss him so much. Some days the pain is almost unbearable. Today is one of those days. How is it that I can't stay consistant? How is it that I can feel really confident one day and the next I feel week and lonely and full of sorrow. I just pray that today gets better.