Time for honesty & truth for a new beginning

[JennyF]

is there anyway you could bottle your strength and sell it, I would give all I have for one half of your strength.

I've had a few comments on my 'strength'. It makes me feel good that people feel I am strong even though I don't always feel that way. To be honest...some days it's all about 'fake it 'til you make it'.

But also, I have to say this. I am 100% committed to saving my marriage. I want to do EVERYTHING I possibly can to ensure that I give it the best possible chance of coming back together. I love my H and I miss him dearly. I ache for him and the life I know we can have together as a family.
BUT...I also believe in the DR principles and I know for certain that if I don't follow them...then I DECREASE the odds of getting what I want. The strength comes because I know it is my best chance of ultimately getting what I want. I can let it go if it means I may get it back. If I don't let it go...then I probably won't. It's just going to take more time than I would like. But...I think that time is meant for me. Meant for me to find myself and improve myself so that WHEN it does come back together...I'm ready to make it the best it can be!
You've read my thread...things aren't looking all that promising for my M at the moment, so I have to do what will increase those odds.

I read advice from other posters and I know what won't work...so why do it? A lot of times it's about my heart and my head battling it out...but my head has to prevail right now. In the process my heart is getting stronger.

Instead of me bottling the strength and selling it to you...it's here for you...in this thread in the form of encouragement from me and a lot of other people. The strength itself is within you...I know it is. And fake it til you make it!!

Thanks for the drinks! I hope we enjoyed them!!
(((HUGS)))
J~