I'm glad the quote was such a hit. Someone posted it on my thread a while back and it really struck a chord with me as well. I have it posted all over the house.

blindsided, think of your constant thoughts and anxiety over your H as withdrawals to a drug. You are addicted. When you go dark, it is extremely hard. You want a "fix". However, as each day passes, it will get easier; you will get stronger. The drug will slowly leave your system.

This is the tricky part, at least for me. When contact does happen, try not to let it send you spinning.

You are sounding much better. I know it is hard.

What is it about your home that makes you feel crappy? I know that I felt like I had to escape all the memories. It helped to re-arrange things and get all of his stuff out. Then I put a few new things here and there to make it "my" space. Your home is your haven. Use some of your energy to focus on making it a place you feel safe in and can enjoy. If it is too quiet, play music or invite a friend over for dinner.

Wasn't it a beautiful day today, after the rain cleared? I love the weather like this. It is almost electric.

((HUGS))

Last edited by nephartiti; 12/08/07 08:16 AM.

Me29
H33
D9 months
S2
S9(previous R)
Sep 8-19-07
I file 11-5-07
H home (Retro) 2-15-08
"Today is the tomorrow of yesterday." -- S9