I'm just looking for some advice and was recommended to try this forum, since i suppose this is really where i belong...
you can read my whole sitch (link is in signature below), but here are some of the details. about 2 1/2 years into our M, my H changed. Not sure what happened, but slowly over the course of a couple months he became jealous, demanding, disrespectful and insulting. He was always a little like that, but over this time it got progressively worse. I told him ILYBINILWY. That's how i felt/feel. after a little while, he told me he wanted a Divorce if i couldn't be 100% sure that our M would go back to what it was. I was hurt and scared andi wasn't sure. He said fine, he didn't want to be M anymore. he started staying in his office every night and I in the bedroom, but otherwise, we just bumped around each other like roommates til we figured out exactly how it would all play out. One thing he was firm on was the D.
a couple/few months later(timetable is slightly warped in my head right now) i began a friendship which turned into an EA online. it ended 3 months later when he found out and read everything we had talked about. He decided that he wanted to give it another chance, so I said that I wanted that too.
So now here we are, i'm not in love with or attracted to my H and he doesn't trust me. I've got a feeling he's not going to be able to give me the effort and changes that i need to see in him to make the M work until he can trust me again, so I just need advice on what i can do for him.
thanks.
If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown
