I will never ever defend what I did. It was the biggest mistake of my life. I should have just moved out of the house and taken my babies with me.
What you truely "should" have done, was fight to have a better marriage.
if you instead believe that you "should have just moved out".... then it's no wonder your H is insecure. there's a good chance he can sense that you feel that way. That you view staying with him, as the mistake, because yhou "should" have left him.
what happened back then, that you were "crying myself to sleep in my room alone. " ?
My current status: june 2006. Wife ran out and filed D. Finalized Jan 11, 2010, after 12.5 years M. 3 wonderful sons caught in the middle
