W still angry with me, but the intensity lessens

[Lanzo]

Arrrh !!! I just been reading a couple of posts and I think I've hit that middle ground where my DB efforts seem to be making inroads but W is still heading for the high road.

If I can use that popular expression "I've DB'ed my ass off" in the last few weeks and I've managed to quell W's open anger and aggression toward me, to the point where we can have a civil conversation. A couple of months ago W wouldn't even stay in the same room as me, but yes now we're in the same room and we can talk.

I thought I was making good progress and someone even posted and said "it seems like you have your ball in play and are doing good" but tonight W has packed her overnight bag and is out the door. I couldn't even say if she is meeting OM cos I don't snoop, but there's that little voice in my head trying to piece together all those bits of the circumstantial evidence to make.... Quiet !! (Big Stop Sign)

I tell you, you can detach, GAL, act as if, but there nothing to stop that feeling of your heart being ripped out when you see your W setting off to do whatever. All I could do was grit my teeth. smile and tell her to have a good evening. ****!!!! It feels as though I'm condoning everything.

OK glad to get that off my chest. Someone please post and tell me to forget OM and all the other stuff we tell people, I know the drill but just need to hear it.

Right now I am reaching out to someone on this board who has got through the initial anguish of the bomb, and has got a handle on DB principles and is applying them well, but know they are gonna be in it for the long haul. I think need a support buddy to help me through this limbo period, compare notes and encourage each other. Any volunteers.

Lan