Hi w8ing- It is so interesting how your H has all of a sudden turned somewhat pleasent...I like how you are so guarded and thinking of his possibly motives. I am always so naive and just want to believe the best.
Now when it comes to hope, I agree that you need to do what ever it is that gets you through...but I just can't help but wonder if you can truly have compassion and forgiveness if you have no hope. Maybe you can and my brain just doesn't work the same. You should want to be in the healthiest place possible and I wonder if having no hope, you shut yourself off emotionally...which might not be good. Does that make sense?
Your H's house guest sound interesting. Did you pay this friend to do this to your H? It is perfect!
