OK I was listening to the radio earlier today and really listened to the following song and thought WOW. That is really how I feel.
From Album - Jordin Sparks Tattoo Lyrics by Jordin Sparks
Oooh... Oooh... Ohhh.. No matter what you say about love, I keep coming back for more, My head in the fire, sooner or later I get what i'm asking for No matter what you say about life, I learn every time I bleed. The truth is a stranger My soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free to, Admit that I was wrong and then change my mind. Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.
I can't waste time so give me the moment I realize nothing's broken No need to worry about everything I've done Lived every second like it was my last one. Don't look back got a new direction Loved you once, needed protection. You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo, Just like a tatto, I'll always have you.
I'm sick of playing all of these games It's not about taking ties. When I look in the mirror, Didn't deliver It hurt enough to think that I could stop Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind. Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind
I can't waste time so give me the moment I realize nothing's broken No need to worry about everything I've done Lived every second like it was my last one. Don't look back got a new direction Loved you once, needed protection You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo, I'll always have you.
If I live every moment Won't change any moment Still a part of me and you. I will never regret you Still the memory of you Marks everything I do.
I can't waste time so give me the moment I realize nothing's broken No need to worry about everything I've done Lived every second like it was my last one Don't look back got a new direction Loved you once, needed protection. You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo. Just like a tattoo I'll always have you.
But knowing that I needed to end things with OM is in the best intrested for my R with H. I feel sad but not as sad as I thought I would. But now I am on the fence about telling or not telling, that seems to be the question of the day for me everyday now.
But H and I are heading out tonight to get our Christmas tree, we still get a real one even thought I don't like the mess of a real tree. I would much rather have a fake one but H has always had a real one growing up, so its a tradition from his side of things. Then we are going to do a bit of Christmas shopping after we get a bit to eat.
Oh yeah and there was a first in a very long time that happened today, H and I met for lunch. Wow two meals together in the same day, I don't know what I am going to do, LOL. His normal work schdule does not allow for us to get together at lunch time but he is working out of the plant today so we were able to meet up. I really hope that it's something that we can do on a more regular basis.
