Don't know what I'm doing anymore - Help.

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So last night i didn't get to talk to him like i wanted. He got his brother and girlfriend to come babysit so we could get some christmas shopping done. I thanked him for that cause normally i always have to find the sitter. 3 times that night he asked if i was talking to anyone else. i did good. I just said no and that I can only reassure him so many times, eventually he's just going to have to believe me. I would have talked then, but Toys r Us is not really the place for it. hehe...

we are at home, watching some UFC stuff and he randomly tells me he wants to see me naked. what sense does that make, can't we just sit down and have a nice evening... anyways. i tell him that i'm freezing and made a little joke about it. not 20 minutes later, after i'm covered up, he says it again. geez. he wants to see it, fine. afterwards i remind him that i know its important to him and if he directly asks me for something, I'll do it for him, but comments like that don't do anything for me and if anything, it turns me off more because he knows i didn't want to do it yet he continued at me until i did.

As we are laying in bed, i tell him goodnight. He asks what happened to me trying more often to try to get the feelings back(on sunday i told him that i have always enjoyed sex, that i will start trying more often and maybe that will help us) I asked him how often he expected that and he didn't know. I explained that twice so far this week is a big change for me and that i appreciate him being patient and understanding with me while I'm feeling this way. That it helps not to feel pressured by him. *silence* alrighty then, "goodnight" then as i'm about to fall asleep, he asks if i've been talking to anyone else again. I just told him that he already knows that answer to that question is no and I did not have the time or energy to have that discussion right then, we'd talk about it after work tonight. He always does that, i'm falling asleep and he says something i can't ignore, well not anymore. he may be able to roll out of bed whenever (he works from home), but i have to leave the house by 7:15. i have to get up get the girls ready and feed them breakfast. I don't have time to have these conversations at 2AM.

He didn't have anything to say this morning. I guess we'll talk tonight. He sounded fine on the phone this morning. He's getting a cold. yesterday he didn't take anything for it. Today i gave him the medicine.