I never really answered your last question. Yes, I was hoping for something non-sexual. That was why I was dissappointed and the fact that he did not even try to cooperate in what I was doing. That was the "turn-off" for me.
Sorry, for blowing off like I did. I know I still have a lot of resentment that I should shed and I'm trying, but it is very hard to do. I guess I want all of you to understand what I have gone through but I don't seem to get the message across very well. Anway, I hope I answered your question.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
