Pregnant and abandoned #3

[blindsided1]

I really don't even begin to assume I know what you should do, maybe I'm not reading it with that outlook. When I read Jenny and your sitch, I just feel hopeless. Sorry, I don't mean to sound cruel or anything. I just feel hopeless about everything. I just don't read a lot of threads that are hopeful. I see people going through the same things I am and not getting anywhere. Somedays I beg God to let me stop loving him. I hate that I want to stop loving him. Yesterday I told him that I just wanted to get over him and now I worry that he will stay away in an attempt to let me do that. I am totally over analyzing everything. Concentrate on the facts. I just have to keep telling myself that. Do not believe anything he says. Both my Mother and my best friend told me that they believe that me seeing her picture on his phone was not an accident. They think that he is trying to push my buttons and keep me off balance. I think they may be right. But, my heart keeps interpreting it in the negative. Sometimes I wish that I could just cast my emotions and feelings aside as easily as he has for me.