I get scared that I won't talk to him and we will just grow farther and farther apart. And, he will fall into that comfortable zone with OW and I'll just be, as he refers to me, his First wife.
I know that contact makes you feel connected to him, but honestly is the contact you do have bringing him home? No. Try not to use the no contact as a game to bring him back, but more to further YOUR healing. I laugh as I type this because I stink at it, but I really try and make it a reality. I have been at this for well over a year and the contact has not brought him back permanently....just temporarily and it keeps his foot in the door.
Let me ask you this....when you read my sich or Jenny's do you think "oh, she needs to go dark, take care of herself, etc"? I read yours and hers and some others and think that, but I don't apply it in my own sich. Why? We all know what we NEED to do, its just very hard.
Me: 46 FWS: 36 Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07 Baby Girl born 3/08 Kicked him out because OW: 7/08 5/10 He realized what he had and lost. Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!
