Listening and learning. I feel like I am back in elementary school again. I really hope this gets easier. I think he is suppose to have the kids this week end. I'm not sure because he might be moving into his own place. It makes me happy and sad at the same time. Where he has been living has not been a place for me or the kids to really be at for more than a few minutes. So him on his own will make that easier. When I said it would give us a chance to spend time together all I have to do is find someone to watch the dogs for me. His reply was you don't have to do that, just bring them there is a fenced back yard. I am thinking that is one of those little responses you look for.
I asked him yesterday if he wanted me to get some boxes so I could pack his stuff he got offened. He says you want my stuff out of here? I told him no I just thought you would want all your stuff if you are living in your own place. He said I guess. Not sure what that means.
Then when he left I was lending him my vacuum and jokingly said don't break it, it's the only one I got if I move out of here. He says well why would you move from here.(house is paid for no morgage) I said I wasn't planning on living here forever. He thinks that I should. I ended the convo right there because I didn't want to get into a R talk with him. Now I have't heard from him since. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I need to scream oncce in awhile. I am not calling or texting only that quick email last night. I will let him come to me so I figured I would journal here for a bit. Keep my hands busy. Thanks for listening to my rambling.
Me:32 H: 34 T: 12 YEARS M: ALMOST 5 S: 8 D: 4 S: 14 (OTHER R) SEPERATED: 03/09/07 (but wanted to work on it) NEW SEPERATION: 27/11/07 (doesn't know what he wants) MOVED HOME 12/01/08 I'm acting as if this blue sky is never going to rain down on me....Sara Evans