Time for honesty & truth for a new beginning

[phbear316]

I canceled the hotel reservations for Sat night. I cannot get myself to sell the tickets for the play. I'm feeling that if I sell them and keep the money it truly was not my money to begin with. (gift from BIL & SIL). I'm feeling that H is ultimately responsible for us not going to the play, so if the subject comes up with his brother and sil, he will have to tell them it was his idea not to go. believe it or not still have a faint flicker of hope that h could change his mind. But not counting on anything. So he should have to deal with the guilt not me.

I just find it very hard to comprehend that we can watch tv, for 4 hrs have dinner together. Why is it so difficult for him to go see a play that he has always wanted to see. Am I that bad of a person, a monster that you cannot spend 4 hours with me?

well that is my two cents for now.

bear