I did the same thing for months, told W how I felt, gave her cards and filled it with how I felt and flowers. She said in C'ing it all made her feel guilty. Looking back she felt guilty because she was or did have an EA, don't know if it was PA. I know in my case it's easier to see what I should do when someone writes it down than for me to think of what I should do on my own. It's so much clearer when you see it in black and white.
I agree on the need to GAL, in my case it had to be put on hold. I had quad bypass surgery 10/15. Going out this weekend with best friend for a drink, maybe two, don't tell my Dr. Be the best dad you can be, get involved with them and play with them.
Come here to vent, don't do it to W. Keep a PMA when around her, hard to do I know but you must.
Mike
M 51 W 49 S26 S25 D24 D19 Married 27 yrs T over 30 S 7/12 D-bomb 9/26