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[mrarow]

Ok Ok to all three of you. You all seem so right and are from what i have read and am being told. I am just killing my own chances and I do know its not working, its very obvious. My question is this what and why do we do it then???? I will never understand my stupid actions knowing full well I am doing the wrong thing. I can't help but feel I want to go and hug her and tell her how I feel and its just so stupid for me to want todo that knowing the results it will bring. I need to get a life!! I can't believe I have let myself get so dependant on some one else for my happiness. This is a heck of an awakening.....Thanks for all the input its helping to get me thru this bull.