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[mrarow]

Ok back from dinner and She has made me feel terrible but I managed to pretty much not show it. I just validated and listened to her tell me how much she is still on fence and not and never was in love with me. I think she wanted the reaction and tears, I'm not sure? I managed to keep my cool and not turn it into how she makes me feel. It was not easy but I think I pulled it off. I am feeling so scared that she is going to go to the OM. She constantly tells me and shows me how much she cares and misses him. She states she has never loved me right and swears we go married only because I rushed her into it and that she feels it was this terrible mistake. WHY MUST I ALWAYS HAVE TO FEEL LIKE I NEED TO CRY!!!I HATE THIS!!