All I can hold on to is myself, kids and this site

[BEAUTYandWAH]

What is going on my life?? My mind is going down and up. Yes, I have a good news today. I got raise and it is pretty good one. I am soo happy and felt like I did good job even when my personal life is like roller coaster. So, it is good thing.

MyH (or what do I call him from now on since we are separated and he has no intention to work on marriage.) Yes, he did check on me to since the snow is like 5 inch. And everyone knows I am suck at driving.

In the conversation, he asked about things he is looking for and thinks it is still in my house and said need computer. Not much conversation but I had to tell him about my raise so he will get the message of 'i'm doing well'.

Today I read a book 'Men in Midlife Crisis'. Maybe 20% of the book helped me. The book is really about middle age... so. I have good understanding about a few things. 'he will not come back to the family unless he finds dissatisfuction in affair.' As long as affair is 'better than family things/marriage', he will continue to be 'a**h**e'.

It seems like he is happy to get attention from OW by 'text' messages. I may have to run over his cell phone so he will not get any attention.. hehe just kidding.. but yea, we had run over our cell phones TWICE by accident.

So, my mission is following...
1- make a distance from him
2- continue work on myself
3- minimum contact w/him
4- send my secret energy to break up him and OW-1 or -2

Beauty