Long and bumpy road

[Startingover2]

Do you ever feel like you cannot make it another day with this going on in your life? That is how I feel today. I wonder what else can go wrong and if it does, can I handle it?

Had a doctors appointment today. She took one look at me and said I looked exhausted! Gee thanks...lol. I explained my sitation with my daughter on top of things with dh. I lost 2 lbs this month and my bp was borderline. She said get rid of the stress. No more. Time to take care of SO2 and baby.

I left dh a text telling him doctors appointment went ok. Nothing more.

Him: Why didn't you tell me? I would have loved to go. What did the doctor say?
Me: Things are ok, but I have to eliminate the stress. It's taking its toll on me.
Him: OK, let me know what I can do.

I left it at that. Ummmm, lets see....does he not realize he is part of the stress? OMG such denial.

I picked up my daughter and took her to work. I did my best to have a smile and be happy. She finally hissed at me and asked why I was acting like things were ok? She is still mad at me for ratting her out, not the fact that what she did was wrong. She is supposed to come back with me tomorrow night...we will see. She may want to stay with her dad. It will break my heart. I will have to tell her if that is her choice then I am no longer her taxi, slave, and her cel phone comes back to me. Her dad can provide all those things if he is stupid enough to go along with it all. I worry so much about her if she lives with her dad. He works and has a life and will end up leaving her alone and free alot...which is why his house is so appealing.

Rough day and I am feeling very down and very alone. I have nothing planned or to do tonight. Friends are with husbands and my kids are with their dad. This sucks.