Trying.. thank you for your perspective. I have sent him some emails of questionable nature :).. and done some other stuff, but I guess its not enough. and yes I am happy that he wants me, but it seems he wants it like it was when we first met which was about 19 years ago.. its not going to be the same, not like that, we grow and change and our love changes, not that its not love, but its different. Yes, with 2 little ones it doesn't make it easy either, I mean I love being with them, but they don' sleep at night and Im always tired. We definately have to take some time out for just us. I hope your stitch is getting better:)
Penny, thanks for hugs, I need them, always. as for the lawyer the retard hasn't called me back yet, so im on to someone else to call. just want to know where I stand. Of course the big d is the last resort, I will fight like He$$ to make things work out. for my kids sake.
Saffie, and of course you hit the nail right on the head... That's exactly what I feel like... everybody wants a piece of me, and Im burnt out. no, i can't be everything all the time, and that's exactly what is happening. Thanks for the validation my friend:)
Jak.. yes he is right, its just trying to get him to go will be the hard part.. I hope everything is alright with you.. I know your stressed right now, im going to pop over to your stitch soon.
H hunted all day, so he will be tired tonight. He's not home yet. S5 had gymnastics tonight... so while I was rushing around, went to put my 2 year old in his seat , I cracked my head on the car door frame OUCH!! now I have an egg on my head ... what else is new... got a headache now.
going to order a pizza, not cooking tonight.. too pooped.
Good nite all!:) and thank you my friends!
tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
