Aud, Taking a brief moment to breathe and jot down a quick note. You sound absolutely great! Man, do I know about flying off the handle while realizing that it is just counter productive!! I realize the patience aspect as well...if you don't mind, I placed a tap in your thread so some of your patience might dribble onto my thread. I will try to wipe my feet in your thread later this week to catch up more but wanted you to at least know that my thoughts were and are with you....peace