She called me today to ask me advice on getting tires. She ended up having to get a credit card in order to pay for the tires. She's pretty stressed out about it and IMed me saying that she felt like she was having an anxiety attack. I told her to breathe deep and try to relax. I asked her what was wrong and she said that she was really stressed out about money. Stupid me said that I would help out. To which she replied "I don't want your help". I just said ok. Another part of me wanted to say "I don't need this effin s#$t. I can find plenty of women that would treat me better than you. B#$%H"... It passed though and I still love her despite it all.
She also said to me while she was on the phone that she was thinking about moving back in with her parents after her lease is up at the end of February so that she could save money. I did good here and didn't say anything about how much money she could save if she moved back in with me. Still it hurts to know that she's looking that far ahead and can't see herself being back at home. A small part of me was wondering if she was fishing for me to say something. I think that's the part of me that's still not detached though and I need to ignore him...
After all that, she said that she was looking forward to tomorrow night. There's some days when I have a hard time being on this coaster.
Oh, and she was also upset that I didn't call her last night? I never said that I would, but she said that she was waiting around all night for me to call... I just said that phones worked both ways and that I would have been happy to talk to her if she had called.
Strange days...
-B
Me: 29 W: 28 T: 10 M: 7 No kids 2 Dogs and 1 Cat With Parents: 09/16/07 Apartment: 10/13/07 Back Home: ~2/16/2008
