You're right on my brother. It's a transformation, and trasformation is never quick, never easy. You will suffer, and many parts of you will/must die, but when the battle is over you will reap the harvest of blessings, no matter how you M turns out.
Be prepared for when the lion charges. You're alone, on foot, counting flowers, and BAM! Out of nowhere she charges, a snarling blur of fangs and fur. Will you run, or will you stand?
You're in the kitchen, your W's cell phone rings, and she leaves the room to answer it. Will you run or will you stand? Will you keep your cool, ignore it, allow her the freedom of her life, or will you run to jealousy, anger, and resentment?
This is a torturous journey you are embarking on my brother. Dangerous, frightening, and completely unknown.
Cog's words sound pretty, and sound easy. You have no idea yet, he chose his words very very carefully. You going to have to become very very good at not getting angry, not getting upset, of patience and temperment.
Sadly, This is going to test your committment to AA. Do not fail in that regard. Do not prove your wife's fears valid, that I believe will be the nail in your coffin, no matter how hard it gets, if you do that, YOU will be the one hammering it in.
God can give you the strength and show you the path, but you have to walk it, and that strength, is usually just enough. If it was a shield against temptation then we would lack free will and hell would be empty.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
