WAW staying, I'm leaving to give her space..

[COG]

Jab,

This struggle you are in is very much a spiritual battle. There are forces waging war against your M, and they are very devious. Fear, worry, selfishness, anger, jealousy, resentment, need to control, are all used against you, to manipulate you. Beware when any of these factors are influencing your actions.

I believe that strength comes through suffering, and I'll be one strong motherf***** after all this is over, that's for sure.

You're right on my brother. It's a transformation, and trasformation is never quick, never easy. You will suffer, and many parts of you will/must die, but when the battle is over you will reap the harvest of blessings, no matter how you M turns out.

Be prepared for when the lion charges. You're alone, on foot, counting flowers, and BAM! Out of nowhere she charges, a snarling blur of fangs and fur. Will you run, or will you stand?

You're in the kitchen, your W's cell phone rings, and she leaves the room to answer it. Will you run or will you stand? Will you keep your cool, ignore it, allow her the freedom of her life, or will you run to jealousy, anger, and resentment?

This is a torturous journey you are embarking on my brother. Dangerous, frightening, and completely unknown.

Pray for me. Give me strength to do God's will.

Absolutely my brother. The deeper connection you can develop with God, the stronger you will become. The closer to God you get, the closer you get to your W and family.

You already have the strength, courage, and faith that it takes to survive this. It's up to you how you use them.

God Bless,

COG