somedays i feel like he is a WAH. I've read so many posts here about how WAS act after they've left (physically or emotionally) and i feel live i've been living like that off an on for the last 6 months or so (since d bomb). Some times he wants to be nice and we can have a normal conversation or nice evening, but most it's like walking on eggshells. i don't know what to say to him or how to act, nothing is ever right. for example: last night, i got home, gave him a kiss, asked about his day while i put away groceries, started dinner and then he asks me why I'm mad at him. where did that come from? I do the same thing most nights. After eating and getting the girls to bed, we sit down on the couch, i rubbed his feet cause he said they'd been hurting. My back started to hurt, so i wanted to lay down. I told him and laid on the other couch. as we are going to bed he asks why i don't ever want to be around him. wtf? where had i been all night... anyways, i just told him that i was sitting with him all night, that he must have had a rough day and if he wants to talk about how he's feeling i'd be happy to listen. then i went to get ready for bed. (i never would have done this, normally i would have asked why he was so upset or what had i done that made him feel like that)
he was also making comments all night about how he wanted to touch me and was whining some about how i wasn't letting him touch me. I know he meant it, but he said it with sarcasm, so i just laughed it off. This is normally something that I'd let get to me. He'd say that. I'd explain that i don't feel comfortable, he'd say something about how i talked to OM about stuff like that and then where would we be? I wasn't dealing with that last night. i was pretty proud of myself... Go ME!!
i am tired. baby with a fever and runny nose... no fun. I think i rocked her more than i slept last night.
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