Yes, the "why"s....they most likely don't even know themselves. They only act and seem more together because they lie to so many others, and themselves, to deal with their confusion and guilt. Myself, I am glad to be awake and aware, even when it hurts like crazy.
I actually mentioned my sitch during a review of what I am grateful for--same thing, getting tighter with my kids, learning about my own strengths and weaknesses, really looking and learning about me instead of filling myself up with everything and everyone BUT me. I don't think I ever would have really looked inward without the turmoil...
I really liked the way you mentioned going into the new year with a new, better frame of mind, challenges and personal goals.
YEA!!!!! The worst year of my life, 2007, is almost OVER!!!!! I don't ever think I have been this excited about throwing away an old calendar and hanging a new one :0)
