Thanks for the input... I met a girl friend for dinner tonight and she told me that telling will only make you feel better for about a minute. Then your world is changed for ever. So that is definatly something that I need to talk to my councilor about, but I don't have an appt until the 19th, eek. So until then I will go about life just as I have been for the last week or so. Still working on the R with H and trying to keep contact with OM to a minimum. I have not told OM what my intentions are yet but he will know something is up when this weekend rolls around we are supose to go to a b-day party for one of our friends. I have to come up with some reason that I can't go. I know lies that is what got me where I am at, not being true to me. But possibly he has discovered that I have picked up my things that I had left at his place for, just in case. Early on I had left shower gel and lotion, which the shower gel was in the shower when I went to pick everything up today while I was on lunch. No I don't have a key to his place, he is a very trusting soul he never locks his house, and neither do his parents. I find this odd but it seems to be normal for them. But in all honesty he really has nothing that is worth taking, you know a single guy living alone. I put H in charge of find a councilor for us, but one thing that I realised today is there is only one night a week that we have together that we can go, and that is Friday night. Monday night we bowl together on a league, Tuesday night I bowl, Wednesday night H bowls, Thursday D has class until 6:30 so one of us needs to be avilible to pick her up, and that leaves Friday night OH yeah and weekends. But we definately do need one there are issues that were never even touched when we went before. Like why did we start living seprate lives, not just we started living seprate live OH well. I don't know what it is why I can just turn off the feelings that for the OM that were so strong a month ago.
