Hi everyone it has been awhile since I have posted you may remember me as wishingitwasover.. I am still on the rollercoaster ride with my husband I never did get divorced the ride I am on now with him does not have the twist and turns anymore it more or less has been a straight run... we are still living apart he now owns his own home, and I do believe his is still dating and as for me I am still living with the new man in my life and he has asked me to marry him but I am unable to take the steps for divorce..
Life is not so bad for me I survived the crisis although if you would have asked me 4 years ago i thought for sure it was going to kill me...
My kids have survived it, my son and his father have a good relationship my daughter is getting better she has started to see that life goes on and we can still be happy..
my husband and I are the best of friends, I have forgiven him for all the pain, the hurt, the tears, I have accepted him for who he is.. Do I feel he is still in crisis YES do I make his crisis my world anymore NO... this has forever changed who we are, but it never took the Love I have for him away and I know it did not take his from me..
He still stands by my side and helps me out at times, and I him, we are there for each other.. and he does say to me you never know we could land up back together again.. he does not want a divorce and neither do I..
I have grown so much from all of this, it has made me a new person, I no longer judge others for I do not walk in their shoes, I take the time to enjoy my life, my family, don't get me wrong I am not living in a fantasy world things are not perfect but they are good..
I am blessed to have come out the other side of this crisis smiling and living and so will all of you.. we all will survive
