Long and bumpy road

[Startingover2]

Yes, I am afraid to let him go. Why? I can't tell you. He really isn't some sort of catch. Maybe I am afraid of being alone. I really have not been fully separated from him. We always managed to connect at least every week or so. Then he would bail. So now besides being pregnant, nothing has changed. He is now not saying he is bailing since I have been pregnant, but I really think the way we were working things with him living in a separate home, coming and going here when he pleased and maintaining other women on the side really worked for him!