Don't know what I'm doing anymore - Help.

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I don't mind sounding like a broken record. At least I'm sending the same message over and over... I'm here and I want our M to work, it's just going to take time to make it all right.

Something he mentioned one time in MC is that he doesn't help me because he doesn't want to do it wrong. (don't know how I've ever given him a reason to think anything he's helped with is wrong, but I probably did, I just try to be super grateful now) So, like for the laundry, i made a cheat sheet showing him where i set the knobs and how much soap to put in. We'll see if that helps... if anyone has any ideas on how to get a H to do a little more without me begging, i'd love ot hear it!!

How can i thank him for giving me space without making him feel bad? monday night we just sat together and watched tv for an hour or so and he didn't try grabbing at me or anything so i said " i really appreciate that you are being patient with me on the physical stuff, it means alot that you understand" he said, "well i really don't have a choice do i?" I'm thinking i said it wrong.

I've been trying to do more little things physically to show affection, but it's like he knows that I don't really want to be doing it, so he doesn't even want it. The way he explained it to me is "it's okay that you are trying, but because i know that you are only doing it for me and not because you really want to, it makes it hard for me to care. I want you to want me physically, like i do with you, not just go through the motions." I just tell him that i'm working on getting to that point and it will just take time.

i'm frustrated with myself because i don't know what it is specifically that turned me sooo off. I wish i could just flip a switch. I've always been HD and i miss it, but i just don't enjoy it with him right now (even since before the pregnancy)...

patience ann patience hehe...