Pregnant and abandoned #3

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SO2: you are so right about the picture of my family. It just breaks my heart that he could do this. When I first found out that he was thinking of leaving, I never for a moment thought that he would ever choose OW over his wife and child. It just didn't even occur to me. He use to talk about how he felt like he was at a cross roads and if he takes one path, he looses us and if he takes the other path he looses her. I think maybe that is why I am so focussed on OW. I feel like he CHOSE her over us and that is a horrible feeling. My H text messaged me this am also, I did not respond, either.

Puddle:
I am trying to let go, but not really. One minute I just want to say screw it and forget about him and the other minute all I want is for him to come home. I am journaling and it does seem to help. I let things out here, a lot, because the feedback is what helps me.