Pregnant and abandoned #3

[blindsided1]

Well it's another crappy day. I don't know if it's the hormones or what, but I am still waking up crying. I've been really sad all day. Actually I've been really sad for the last couple of days. I want my husband home and that is all consuming to me. I hate the idea of him spending time with OW. I hate it. I know that I am just repeating the same things over and over, but it is how I feel. I just feel really lost. Last night I was reading the baby books and all I could think about was the fact that he wasn't there to share in this with me. I know it's his loss, but it's my loss, too. I just want this to stop hurting. It hurts too much.