Limbo,
You may have moved passed the feelings in this post, but a couple of comments all the same - 'cause I've felt the same, and still do at times.

Maybe it's time for you to concentrate on yourself some more and not worry about the M for a while. Rest. Pull back. Recharge.
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but I am so tired of being the one that hold everything together and in many ways taken for granted.
How about stopping being the one for a while. Let go, relax as best you can. This doesn't mean you've given up, just taking a break.

Take care.

M45, W45,S15, D10,
Bomb 10/3/06, Moved back in 11/6/06, finally ILY 9/07
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