Actually all considered I think that we had an ok evening last night. I was playing against the OM and then we had a few drinks afterwards. It was good and I was in complete control of my emotions which surprised even me.
When I got home my W asked me how it was and I told her. It was a good calm and factual discussion. I rubbed her shoulders as she was playing on line backgammon.
Today is her birthday, I have nothing special planned, just a booking for day at the Spa and we are going to a basketball game tonight. She has never been so it should be fun and light easy evening.
The only thing that did disturb me was that after our melee the day before she said that she has nothing to live for and is all depressed. She also said that I probably have nothing to live for either. I figure a big part in that thinking is that our baby making and infertility treatments were all put on hold in essence by her when she had the A so chances are we will never have children, only each other.
