Well took over downstairs reckroom couch for sleep tonight. Had long talk and listen with wife and she is talking and feeling separation. Loves to make sure I know how she feels about OM as well and how real her feelings of love for him are. I am not into this topic much as it just kills me inside as does tiring to sleep by myself after 13 years. I feel so alone and depressed after we talk lately and this sleeping alone stuff is going to be very hard to take. I took a hug and goodnight kiss but no affection back just the same blank stare after which makes me feel like "What do you think your doing don't you know that just pressures me, get away"! She does not say it only because I think she still has a little compassion but that's it. Hey can a woman really fall back in love and be happy?? I am so negative it hurts. Going to try and get some sleep but that has not been coming easy....tomorrow I hope will be a better day
