WAW does not want to try

[wawpioneer]

I_W,

I had just enough energy to read to words on the home page but I really am emotionally drained right now. Thank you for the link. It should help me. I will go back to it at another time. I talked to my brother tonight and he made an interesting statement. He said that she has already taken this so far that if she went back on her decision to separate then she might regret that for the rest of her life more than she would regret not staying and working on our M. There may be something to that. I don't know. I am so confused right now and I am feeling just as lost as she probably is.

I am trying to accept the situation for what it is but it is so hard for me to imagine a future without her and it is so hard to imagine that she is going to go on with her life without any regard to me at all. I will hope and pray that through the counceling and through the lord that she will find her way back to me. Right now it is so hard to see anything through all the pain and anguish.

I appreciate the words of encouragement. That afterall is my love language as described by Gary Chapman. She also has read the book but does not understand the "in love" vs "real love" section and cannot determine her love language. I think that she is so determined to change everything about her sitch but nothing about herself to find happiness. I pray that one day she will see the light.