Update time, I am still in the house as it looks like the apartment will be in use for at least another month. No big deal, I am still DB'ing but have been very lax about it, just going with the flow. I have blown up at W a time or two the past week or so and don't see much difference. She has been gone since sunday evening with OM and bff. I am never sure when she is coming or going lately, but it is just taken in stride. I broke down this morning, before kicking off another early day and long night and sent the following text. "regardless of what the future of our m holds, I want you to be happy! I would love for this to be with me as your husband in every sense of the word, but if not, sobeit. I am thankful for the lessons learned in this time of uncertainty and that I have chosen to love, unconditionally. You and ss have been an inspiration to me. I love you both with all I can!" Probably a bad move, but I woke up and felt like saying it. Of course, no response and she wasn't home when I got in. I have been irritated, frustrated, etc. because she is moving so far away after having a seemingly great connection just last week. Oh well, such is the journey. I think I have been fairly consistant, just a little showing a bit more emotion. Time to back off, and focus on the stuff I need to do.
