we're on a therapy break for now. whell a "couples" therapy break. she has taken over our original couples councelor as her own which is fine with me I felt we were not getting anywhear with that therapist. I've got my own guy. she has her own girl. and we're looking for a solution orientated ccouples ouncelor at the moment.
This all boils down to my issue with forgiveness. I thought I had forgiven Her but I guess I really haven't. My heart is full of all controlling resentment, anger and hurt. this is something we're trying at the moment to get help with. this is the reason I snoop. the reason I am on eggshels waiting for the next contact with OM.. since the talk last night I feel somewhat relieved. She rienforced her commitment to me and our relationship. which is something I've been doubting. or fearfull of. I feel like we can talk now without the next thing that comes out of my mouth is going to be the relationship ender. She says I'm blind and deaf. Blind to not see that she is here with me. when we were days away from signing the divorce papers. and deaf to not hear her her commitment..
agian it's the all controlling resentment. This ain't as easy as I thoght it would be.
