Taking it day by day...

[Hurtin4certain]

Yeah..so my moods fluctuate between sadness, moving on and despair.

Part of me knows my M is dead, part of me still has hope and the other part is fear of whats to come.

After our blow up last night (we both went off on each other) it seems like I will never again have a friendly relationship with my W.

We've had blowups before and always came back together but this feels so final, partly because she has OM I guess. Im having a hard time letting go of our M.

I miss my W when she would play around with me, call me on the phone with her really sweet and tender voice, when she encouraged me to do well at whatever I was doing, when she would see me from a distance and come running up to hug me with the biggest smile on her face.. I just miss us.