Jet, Just wanted to check in to see how you are doing. I have been a lurker. You have been at this a little longer than me. My H left 9/04. We were in court 12/05 but papers weren't signed until 06/06, so I guess that was when we were officially divorced. I have always felt that he has given me rays of hope which have kept me holding on. But here we are in 12/07 and I am still hanging on. I can't figure out if I am just stupid for trying to hang in there? I have not dated ... I don't want to because I can't imagin myself with anyone else except my husband. Am I in denial? Wish I knew. Wish God would just hit me over the head and say ... hey, ... it is time to move on. I am so afraid of spending the rest of my life alone. I can't imagine life without my husband. He still seems to seek me out when I try to "stay away" from him. As soon as he contacts me ... my hope is right back. He always wants to talk to me about our daughter. I don't know how to set limits ... but I also hate to ... because of what could be.
