Time for honesty & truth for a new beginning

[phbear316]

H has been home sick all day today but had a make up counceling session this afternoon, Said he felt well enough to go, so he did. H calls me when he is home, I say well get some rest and if you want you can lay in bed in bedroom. I get, I'll think about it...you'll what, think about it. OMG, I'm not there just take a nap in bed with the tv on instead of trying to get comfortable on couch. Room is darker!. I'll think about it. Give me a break.

I said what ever to h do what you want. I then later on had to call h to tell him something work related and important. H calls back with updated info, and then says i may go out for a while, i may be back when you get home from your C session. Ok i said what ever. I am going to target tonight. H says oh ok.

Still stuck on the i'll think about it. I know this afternoon when I called him to talk to him about work issue, his phone has a certain ring when he is on it, i know he was on the phone with her. Nothing I can do about it though. Maybe two sessions of counceling this week will do him some good.

I really wish h would reconsider about play this wkend. But I am not putting any hope in it coming to light. I have this sinking feeling h is going to wedding without me. We shall see

Oh I also saw someone my h knows father in the death notices last night. Another change for me I did not say a word to h that I saw it. H found out from someone in the peds er, left him a vm message. You all can guess who, so after his session he stopped by funeral home. I feel bad i did not say a word but i need to make changes. small ones, but changes

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