Thanks for the bump. Things have been very busy lately, end of year push, mixed with the Christmas season. Part of my detach modes sometimes includes not focusing on posting all the time, using a little faith and trying to discipline to follow correct DB approach. This phrase of, "this too shall pass", means a lot to me also right now.
As we were sitting last night doing something with the family, S11 was kind of acting up. The thought that came to mind was how W actions have soured the atmosphere and attitude in the house. It is true how the W sets the spiritual level in the house, either for good or for bad.
Was doing something with my S15 on the weekend and something broke, which included a loud bang, so all came running. When we figured out what had happened and what had broken, W took such a "wounded" (why does this always happen to me) attitude. All I could think was, "Who's going to have to get the part, tear this thing apart and put it back together in this freezing cold". You know darn well it wasn't going to be W, but you would have thought so.
So, did I go out with friends this weekend? No, I kept very busy, but a little vague of where and when. What amazes me is that even though I was taught by word and action, how to treat a wife properly growing up, I find myself having to do opposite to that to keep a wife. Sometimes she will thank me for doing something for her, but generally, most of the good stuff I do just seems to tick her off. I guess she has a paint brush in her hand with the color she wants to paint me as, but she's getting tired of standing there holding the brush with nothing to do.
Right now my "hunch" says to stick it out, roll with the punches. So that is what I am doing. I figure as long as I am satisfied with what I am doing, if she straightens out or leaves, I have done my best. I suspect within the next year there will be a shift in factors in the equation, which I think will lead to a better outcome. Let's hope so.
