Get Me On A Smoother Ride....Need Advice #7

[SueS]

Well, I talked to a friend of mine for almost an hour today. We've been good friends since we were kids and she was involved in my wedding. She knows all about all our ups and downs, H's previous A, our good times, our bad times.....etc. She's on the.....I know you love him, but your life together has always been about him....You need to have this conversatin and lay it out there for him. She's the friend that I might go spend a few days with. We haven't seen each other in a few years and last year she moved to within about an hour & 1/2 of me.

Now another friend called me to see how I was. She's of the mind set that I need to ask my H a bunch of questions because I really don't know what's going on in his mind.....maybe he really wants me and this life and he needs me to show him that I need him too. Well, I love this friend, but she's only known me for a few years. She's the ultimate optimist. She doesn't know all the issues of the past.

I've always been one to try to please everyone. I've been told time and time again by friends, family, bosses...etc., that I can't do that. I'm told that I'm a classic case of the child of an alcoholic. My sister was the rebellious one and I was the one that tried to make everything okay for everyone. It took me years to be able to say something to my dad about his drinking. My sister always spoke her mind. The very last time my dad got busted for DUI, I finally broke down and talked to him. It was so hard.

I'm literally sick to my stomach thinking about all of this.

SueS