Don't know if it's helpful but actually finding out about the PA was horrible but I can tell you that I felt much worse finding out about the EAs prior to that.
I have to agree with that. As my IC put it at the time, the EA was the real betrayal of my heart. The PA was just two lonely, unhappy bodies rubbing together.
In any case, you know the bad news already, so looking at it from that perspective, the worst shock is really already over. I hope that helps - it helped me, way back when.
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