I just wonder if she will wake up some day after the D and think "hmmm, H4C really was a great husband and father."
Stop. Do not concern yourself with this. Your focus is on being a better person, and a better father. Whether she notices or acknowledges the changes is of no consequence or concern to you.
You need to make improvements in your life in preparation for moving on. Prepare for a (better) life without your wife.
We all know that our wives will all look back with wonder and regret (though none will ever admit it). But this is not why we are DBing. We are improving ourselves to get ready for life without those people who have delivered so much pain in our lives.
