Ebb and flow today is difficult. I still spend too much time thinking of her. I think downfall began when I realized I am suppose to see my attorney tomorrow. I am not the person I was pre-separation, but it is all about her feelings. And so I must continue to work on myself and create the best life I can with 5D. I know anything I do in terms of, GAL, time with 5D, learn about myself, study DB/DR, study communication skills, etc is best for me. But I also need to believe that my plan above of being darker, letting her contact, etc is best for ME. And at the same time, hope and pray that what I am doing for myself sparks an interest in WAW.
