jaB - Pay attention to the veterans I am sending your way. COG is one of them. You will hear a lot of things you probably are not ready to hear but the fact of the matter is you have to realize YOUR ENTIRE part in the destruction of your marriage. You are too focused on what SHE has done/is doing/might be doing.
Tip for you - the things you read that chap your ass are probably right on the money. Drop your defenses here and open your eyes. That's what this takes. Oh, and balls. BIIIIG balls.